Life as of 2014


I never thought I would be a person that would write on a blog. Isn’t that what everyone says when they start a blog?

We have been quite distanced from friends and family for quite a while, and I thought this might be a great place to share. I guess we shall see if I keep to It, or maybe this will become another part of my life that I give up easily on. My whole life I have made goals, and then failed at most of them. This though put me in a place of despair and honestly, I would become quite depressed that I couldn’t commit to anything.

Tonight, as I was driving home, I was talking with my mom on the phone driving responsibly while chatting with mom. She told me about some great goals that she reached and part of me felt jealous. See, we weren’t really taught growing up how to stick to commitments. There are some parts of my life where commitment comes easy. Being able to commit to my friendship with my best friend, commit to holding a strong relationship with my parents, commit to better my marriage daily, and commit to always doing a great job at work are easy. See, in each of these, it seems simple. Through each of these, I get something out of them. It’s easy to say yes to that. It’s easy to be selfish.

You know what’s not easy? Committing to bettering myself. Everyday I struggle with things that seem to come easier to others. That’s why I made an actual written commitment to myself to try to keep 2014 resolutions:

 Read your Bible daily. 
 Workout every other day. 
 Walk 10,000 steps a day. (Yes I have a pedometer)
 Eat healthy for all meals. Make healthy choices. 
 Limit yourself to a beer a week. 
 Keep work at work and be present at home everyday. 
 Hang clothes. 
 Keep the house clean by picking up after yourself. Do not expect Brandon to pick up after you.

These are things I struggle with. Some seem so naive and effortless to others, but to me they are the places in my life that I fail at, daily.

Today I didn’t hit every goal, but the ones I did conquer felt like a soldier winning the hardest battle. Today I chose to workout, eat mostly healthy, and to keep work at work. I did have a beer and I only walked 6,000 steps. I didn’t hang my clothes or clean my whole house… But I had a great day at work, which allows me to be present at home and tonight I will read my Bible. I’m grateful that I’m doing something for me.

After talking to my mom, we decided to possibly complete a 5K in Phoenix when I’m home for a graduation. This is so not like my mom to put this out in the Universe, but she did, and I appreciate her for it. I am ready. Ready to not be mediocre.

Love. Ashley.